This is the letter I wrote the day after he crossed the bridge..........My Dear Rexy,
I just can’t wrap my mind around the fact that you are gone. It was only yesterday morning that I had my arms around you, and today I’m staring at your empty bed.
The word unfair is what keeps coming to mind when I think about it all. You would have only been 4 years old this April – way too young to be taken away from us
I feel angry, but I mostly feel lost and so incredibly sad. You were the most amazing dog and you didn’t deserve to go to Heaven so soon. We miss you soooo much, and our hearts are aching badly.
Yesterday is a blur – it happened so quickly – but last night before bed and this morning when we woke up it was a big reality check that you are really gone. I’d give anything I could to bring you back – healthy and with the use of your legs again.
We knew you were in a great deal of pain baby, and that’s why we let you cross the Rainbow Bridge. We hope that you are doing your famous Pugtona’s in Puppy Heaven – and that you’re finally getting to eat all the chocolate and junk food that you want! We told the boys that you can stay young and skinny in Puppy Heaven, and that you’ll be able to use your wonderful, springy legs up there too. You wouldn’t have been able to use them here on Earth anymore, and you wouldn’t have been able to empty your bladder anymore. This would have caused a lot of problems for you Rexy, and you would have been so unhappy and sore all the time. I could tell in your eyes yesterday that you knew we were letting you cross the Rainbow Bridge, when we all sat around you and said our goodbyes.
Don’t worry about your ‘boys’ buddy. Keegan and Austin understand why you had to go. They are very sad and they already miss you so much – especially last night when they filled us in on your nightly ritual of sneaking upstairs after they went to bed, so that you could sit beside their beds for a while. Papa and I didn’t know you did this every night – you clever little guy
They will remember you always little man. We will be giving them a ‘paw print’ casting with your name on it – so they will always be able to hold your paw whenever they need to.
Oh Rex, I’m sobbing as I write this – I just don’t know how to let you go! Even Papa cried yesterday – and Rex you should know that I’ve never seen your Papa cry like that. You found a very special place in his heart in your short life – and even if we didn’t already know how amazing you were – that shows me even more so. You helped Papa understand a love like no other, and he misses you a great deal too.
I missed you this morning when I finished my yogurt – because I was expecting to see you sitting very handsomely at my feet, waiting to lick the cup out. It’s these moments that are hurting my heart so much, but I hope with time I can heal and be able to move on.
We will NEVER forget you Sexy Rexy – you were the best dog anyone could’ve asked for……..
